Why do I keep holding on so tight?
Why can’t I just let it go?
Why do this to myself; repeat this cycle of happiness and sadness?
Am I worried that there will be no one else?
Do I hold on because of his mere affection for me?
Do I keep repeating this cycle because he will always come back throughout it?
How much more can I take?
Should I let go?
Do I love him or do I love the thought of him in my life?